free write 7

today has started out pretty well. i spend the weekend being very busy. i didnt have class on friday but i dont remember what i did.... but i was busy! umm saturday i went to see my boyfriends grandma. we call her granny. i worked till 3 on saturday (12-3) and then came home and talked to my mom for awhile. she was going to come with me but that didnt end up happening due to her mom being gona and her sister not answering her phone and her other sister having to go to work so there was really no point in coming with me. i havent ran in awhile so i am going to after school. im actually looking forward to running with my boyfriend when i go to visit him although i dont like running. it should be fun. i booked my hotel last night finally. i want to grab something to drink after class and possibly something to eat as well. i dont know if there is healthy food on vending machines. in i mean. but anywho, this is a rather decent morning. i have a speech on steve irwin due today. i hope that i will present on friday instead because i am not prepared to speak on him. i know everything in my speech i want to talk about but i havent organized it yet... though i have an outline. kind of ironic.

free write 6

so ive been pretty good recently. i have my car fixed which makes me EXTREMELY happy! i dont know what the damage is for the price though. i had to get a tail light. a..... i know what it looks like and what it does but not the name of it, lol. and a vaccuume power booster. i need a radiator next but the thing that actually fixed it was the thing where you pour your brake fluid into and its the thing below it. theres a rod in it too. but we put the booster in first and it didnt work so we tried that. we also had to put brake cylenders in and i decided to go ahead an put brake hoses in too while we were changing the cylenders, they kinda needed it. we also put something else in . the flasher relay went bad and my other shop i usually put it into wanted to replace the while multifunction switch. good thing we didnt need it. m,y flashers wernt working either. but they are now and i drove him around to see the red squirrels that are only on this one street, not even the next street over or the next tree over just this one street. this granola bar tastes pretty awesome. special K with pretzel and chocolate. makes me crave more pretzels O.o i am probably going to book my hotel for texas tonight or tomorrow. im getting like a $15 a night discount for booking early but havent heard back from them if im going to be able to use a military discount on top of that.

free write 5

im feeling much better today. thursday im going to buy a dragon blade from one of my high school friends. it looks pretty badass. only $25! and yesterday i went to oreilys to buy all my brake parts for someone to do for me today which ill find out the damage after school. hes a pretty trustly guy. doesnt push too much for labor if its a quick fix like me motor mounts were. umm. not much else going on. i might book a hotel today, depends on what my boyfriend thinks of where im staying. i dont think he will care. hotels try to rip you off. its almost false advertisement but its not. they advertise $79 a night but in reality thats only for military personel. made me kind of angry. otherwise its $90. now $10 more dollars a night adds up for me because im staying 8 nights. im kind of anxious. as for my relationship were ok. he seems to be finally acting better but it might be too late. ill just have to push through this rough patch and maybe some day we wil be able to fix this whole stupid thing. i dont even miss him anymore. the things he gave me ont really register in my mind like they used to every day. but somehow if he can pull this one off we might be able to make it. i must say this is the worst we have been. in my opinion that is i dont know about him. he doesnt really talk about his emotions to me. makes it kind of hard to understand him. but umm... yeah. im doing allright. i want to say good but i havent done good in a little while now. i dont remember when i was great either. more of a down time for me. when im feeling a certain way it usually takes awhile to work myself back up to where i was. like i thrive on depression and sadness. i kind of harness it once its started. like my heart is a black hole and eventually im going to get myself sucked into it. cool metaphor i came up with the other day.

sensory language

See- Sea foam nails, green phone cover, my cat, trees, mountain dew.

Smell- Chocolate, kitty litter, washing dishes, pizza, body spray

Taste- granola bar, fruit, popsicle, candy, subway sandwich.

Hear- buzzing, typing, chirping, yelling, knocking.

Touch- balloon, lips, skin, fur, water.

Sensory Language

An odd incident happened to me the other day. It was the middle of the summer when I woke up to a young girl bout the age of 7 knocking on my door with her sea foam colored nails. She carried a popsicle in one hand and a red balloon in the other. I asked her where her parents were and she told me that she ran away because they were being mean and yelling at each other. I had her wait on my porch while I changed into some decent clothes. I put on my favorite leopard fur designed shirt and some old blue jeans. I sprayed my Love Struck body spray on, grabbed a mountain dew and headed outside. I found her swinging her feet back and forth on the edge of the porch listening to the chirping of the morning birds.

            “Do your parents know you’re here?” I asked. She answered with her candy colored lips that they didn’t.  “Why did this girl came to my house?” I wondered to myself. She pulled my hand and told me to get up. “I’m hungry!” she said. “what do you want to eat?” I asked while drinking my own soda. “I don’t know, what do you have?” as she headed inside all the while tugging on my hand for me to follow her. I opened up the cupboards to find nothing suitable for a child. “We can go out to eat if you want. There’s a subway down the street and we can get a sandwich.” “I want chocolate! And pizza! And fruit!” she demanded. I was beginning to get tired of

free write 4

i had a cold the past week and im finally over it. although i still have a slight runny nose i feel great. im in a crunch for money so im kind of stressed about that. im going to texas for spring break. i already bought my flight ticket so i dont have to worry about that. i have to pay for a motel for 9 nights though. on top of all of that my car has been put in such a condition that i shouldnt drive it anymore. my caliper has a leak in it and if i repair just where the leak is it wont work because my parts are so old it wont work and i have a leak in my radiator i dont know how big it is so i might be able to patch it up. and my signals and hazards arnt working. i got an estimant of $1,300. with labor that is. i just need my car to work a little longer until i get my student loans. i know a mechanic that works on my neighbors vehicles so i need to call him up and see if he could look at it for me. my parts his labor. but until then ill be using my moms car and she will use the van. im excited to go to texas but its kind of frustrating because i planned on staying in the barraks with him. i mean i have the money for the hotel its just that i was hoping i wouldnt have to do this. emotionally and physically im doing fine. im frustrated at my boyfriend. im always frustrated at him though. im not sure if i want to put up with it anymore. it seems that he doesnt even really care if my day is doing ok or that he is interested in my car situation at all. if he is it sure doesnt seem like it. he hasnt showed me he cares. he got drunk last night which i normally wouldnt care if he only txtd me twice yesterday... but whatever! lets not talk about negativity! im doing fine, i dont know how he is because he doesnt say how hes doing but he doesnt matter right now. im doing good. :)

free write 3

this morning is a lot better than they have been. i am eating grapes and theyre uber crunchy and kind of sour. i also have tropical gushers which i have not opened yet. as for my relationship i forgot to say that we have now been togther got 2 years and its been all sorts of everywhere. but still good mind you. its been getting better, this weekend was actually a good one for us. i hve realized i do not miss him like i used to. i used to have trouble sleeping without him and i dont hVE problems doing thta anymore along with some other things. i told him this and he feels kind of bad because now he feels that there isnt someone thats out there that is missing him which in response made me feel bad but we dont try to loom over those things@ moving on! it suposed to be 70 degrees today and its 60 degrees right now and it feels awesome! im probably going to go home and type up this paper that is due tonight since i dont work but i do tomorrow night. i only come to school mon wed. and fri. im just overall in a very good mood. not even tired! it is pretty warm in here. but my bra shows throuhg my shirt >.> of well, were in college now, it doesnt matter what people think of you as long as youre dong well in class! umm... what else? i want to go look at a VW beetle today if my mom isnt in a bad mood. last time she was and we didnt get to do anything that i wanted to. i cant wait for summer. in may im going to go to a friends wedding. im so excited for them! they are so good together. i have never heard them complain about eachother on facebook. hmm.... not like i have its just interesting. i have wrote a lot! i SOOOOO cant wait to see my boyfriend im march! and itll be my birthday too! yay me!

free write 2

i got ni a pretty big fight with my boyfriend last night. i dont know what im gonna do with him. i feel like i keep beating my head against the same wall. its just not getting nywhere and im tired of it. a new guy at work i get along with preetty well. i work at a chinese place so theyre al chinese. his name is frank. i think that is a very simple and awesome name kind of like bob. i told him that but he doesnt really understand what im trying to say. i wish i wouldve brought something to drink. kind thirsty right now. still frustrated about our fight from last night. im talking to him this morning but like normal hey how are you stuff. kinda threatened our relationship but whatever! grr! i dont know what i need to do! i know i need to go to work tonight which sucks buts luckily i dont have school tomorrow or work so i can sleep in. i got to transfer my stuff from my old purse to my new one. i didnt really NEED a new one but her, it was $10. great deal. so when this one goes bad ill just go back to my other one :) i need to txt my boyfriend back but what to say. i need an ice breaker. weve been together for 2 years and it has been hectic with him being in the military and all and hardly being ael to call and we cant skype either. his internet sucks on base. it would be soooo much easier to be with him in person. he is someone totally different when hes texting. i thought i was about to sneeze for a second there. ummm.... i already complained about being thirsy. i might go buy a drink depending on how expensive they are. i had an awesome hangnail that is no longer a hangnail. its kinda gross but at least it doesnt hurt.i got my school loans today. which reminds me! i need to go and talk to the...ummm... people who handles money here in the building that can help you with that stuff! yay! because i nee =d to but a new car and i wanted a VW beetle but im not getting any taxes back and im getting less from financial aid than i thought.